1)Work-King of Swords
2)Home-Nine of Swords
3)Unexpected-Queen of pentacles
4)My role-2 of cups
5)Outcome-Ace of pentacles

my work, will be focused on intellectual pursuits. everything very highly intelligent and through. i search deep in things.

home life, it will be hard to get out of bed, there is anxiety here probably of me going back to school tommorow. i'm really worried about this. its hard to sleep because of this worry.

unexpected, i got advice from Robert that i should take more of the dose then i needed of st,johns worth. i was really surprised and shocked. made me think i am out of money to buy more.

my role today is to connect with people, try to create a synthesis . emotional balance. trying to be less depressed. my outcome,ace of pentacles i learned something important about the herbs i am taking, i need to take a lot more. i need to see if it will help with my depression, moods etc.

daily spread

Using gilded tarot.

1)Work-King of Swords
2)Home-Nine of Swords
3)Unexpected-Queen of pentacles
4)My role-2 of cups
5)Outcome-Ace of pentacles

Card of the day (continued)

Also for today i the strenght card had to do with me controlling my anger, i wanted to let it all out but i controlled it because i knew i couldn't let my frustrations out on a someone.

Card of the day

Soft control

I see a gentle woman, you can tell she has a gentle soft expression on her face and innocence, purity in her because she has five roses in her hair, and is wearing a white dress which is symbolized of purity. she is opening the lions mouth with so much ease, and patience.

what this card means is in either for you to tackle a challenge (in this case a lion) you have to have patience and be gentle with yourself and others. but i think this card related to today means that i have to be gentle with myself. yes i'm in a very difficult situation, but i have to patient with myself and gentle otherwise i am not gonna be able to work it out. also the woman in the strength card is calm despite the challenge of opening a lion's mouth. so i guess this is saying for me to stop worrying? i will better success ed in any difficult situation if i am calm, at ease and have patience. for example in my therapy, i have to wait for results, i have to be strong and face my issues but my therapy wouldn't work if i didn't have the patience and if i wasn't gentle with myself.

i also think the card has another meaning, it could mean i am trying to balance my male and female sides. the women being a female principle and the lion being a very strong male principle. so the woman is struggling with her inner male and female side. there needs to be a balance. the female aspect in this card is trying to control the lion masculinity tendency to be lustful and desire, or the ego.

Card of the day

I think for today's reading this card's meaning is very literal. I had construction workers come to finish my home. (we are remodeling our house) in the card you see a worker working on the house and there are two people who look like they are in charge of how the work gets done, so i see this as my father and I. i am in the background. today they were working on my closet, and asked me how i wanted them the shelves for my shoes, i felt my dad had to hae a say into this. so it wasn't all me. so there are three people here working on something. the two other people, my dad and i aren't actively working but there are three people involved in the product, my shelves.:) this is a very literal meaning. Today there was a lot work done on the house since a long time, like one and half weeks? so it was special day with work involved. also this card, the three of pentacles is about fixing up the little details, there is a solid foundation,our house is almost done just some finishing touches. as you can see the three of pentacles in the card are already wove in.he is just finishing a few things that need retouching.

Tarot of the day

Four of cups. another depressing card. the man has a gloomy depressive expression on his face. he is looking at the three of cups , like he doesn't care about them, is he bored and sick of what he has? or is he just too depressed to appreciate what he has. a lack of pleasure in life. a hand pops up with another cup he doesn't even see it. too depressed to notice the good things in life. maybe he bored of his old ways of life, in the three of cups there is celebration, party and then you get bored and realize not everything is a party.

for me with this card i feel i think its telling me that i am too depressed to see my options in improving my situation/depression. i need to be wary of negative thinking and gloom because i might miss an opportunity to get better, i need to think positive. or maybe its telling me today i will be bored with things that i find pleasure in every day life. but more then anything i think its talking about my depression.

Card of the day

In the five of pentacles, I see two men standing by a church, one is kneeling on the floor looking hopeless and sad and the other one is standing looking also very hopeless and insecure. If thats the right word. they both are wearing old worn out clothing. the man sitting down is barly holding on to his crutch. while the one standing up is holding on to it more security, yet they both don't look they are giving either one any hope to each other, no hope or comfort. in the back of them there's a church with five pentacles .

What i'm getting from this card is there is a lack of material security and a loss of hope. like nothing even spirituality can help them. i sense they are both hopeless of the future.

Also they look very tired and worn out, like they have done some hard labor but have gotten very little for it.
and the result is the depression. i feel this is a card of sorrow and depression for lack of material goods? insecurity. like they are barly holding on for hope signified by the crutches.

also another clue to this card, in the four of pentacles, the man is holding on to the pentacle so tightly like he is afraid of risking his money for fear of material loss. in the five of pentacles i get that eventually he risked it but he went all out and spent all his money and now he is deprived of basic goods, money to live on etc.